Exhaustion
1.A thousand strangers broke my heart
Since way back when,
A thousand times I stitched it back;
It bleeds again.
2.A thousand storms tore down my house,
Again it burnt,
Reached out for help and all looked down
And then I learned.
3.A thousand times I built a wall
And stayed inside,
But silly me, let someone in
And spoke my mind.
4.A thousand lives in thirty years,
Seen lots of stuff,
Yet everything I know so far
Is not enough.PTSD
1.Why do I cry towards the sky,
If I could, would I even try?
If I could reach out to my dreams
Would I drop all the heavy things?
2.And will I ever open up?
My lips are sealed, had too much stuff,
I want to see, the lights are shut,
Wish I could speak, my tongue is cut.
3.I hear it takes some time to heal,
Until your heart is made of steel,
Until your skin rejects each touch,
I think I may have healed too much.
4.Stop insisting, I can’t do it!
And it’s more comfortable to quit;
I’m still outnumbered by my fears,
Will spend my life counting down years.Envy
Don’t hurry up to control my mind,
I don’t work for you, I got money, I got time.
I don’t mind the price when I buy wine,
Don’t stare like that, I got money, I got time.
Books and baseball bats are intertwined,
Waiting for the moment, I got money, I got time.
I count money, bitches lose their minds,
I don’t work for you, I got money, I got time.
Edelweiss
1.Scars along my wrists
Bled in someone’s heart,
No cuts any more,
Now I bleed through art.
2.Tried to break an arm
Just to ease the pain,
But the bruises showed
Mostly on my brain.
3.Drooling shadows come,
Closing in on me,
But they can’t surpass
My immunity.
4.Flowers on my wrists
Blossomed in my heart,
White petals on cliffs
Glowing in the dark.
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Lana
1.If I could break in without any sound,
Would you be jealous or would you be proud?
And if you found out that my sins abound,
Yet my sleep is dreamless, deep and profound?
2.If you knew I’m a compulsive liar,
Would you back off, would you be on fire?
If breaking the law is my desire
And your eyes act as an amplifier?
3.If I could kill and lead all astray,
Continue living in the light of day,
Would you be judgmental, what would you say?
Would you come closer or drive me away?
4.I don’t like people, I hide in the sky,
My heart is soaking wet, my eyes are dry,
Your face in the crowd makes me blush and sigh,
I expect nothing, let’s give it a try.Distractions
1.I want no health, money or love,
No place in any Heaven above,
No found family or group of friends,
That’s where any sense of self ends.
2.I want no exotic beaches and hourglass body,
Six packs would do if I’m feeling naughty,
No fancy job or costly city breaks
In far off countries shaken by earthquakes.
3.No yoga rooms or therapy,
Coaches preaching about clarity;
There’s one thing I want, one thing I chase,
Never to work in an open space.Antisocial
1.Don’t make children, they will hold onto your legs,
Throw you in competitions to see who begs,
Tie you by your weakened arms
And leave you greyed out, depleted of charms.
2.Don’t make children, they are exchange nowadays,
For them to see who endures love and who pays;
In wealth they’ll be free of pain,
If unobtainable always abstain.
3.Don’t make children, they’ll make you blackmailable,
For the darkest deeds always available;
Not until you learn to see
All humans on Earth deserve to be free.Here I go again
1.Here I go again,
Every now and then,
Let my heart be torn,
Do I never learn?
2.Here I go again,
Until God knows when,
Opened up a door
And fell through the floor.
3.Here I go my dear,
How am I still here?
Thought my heart was dead,
Look, another shred!
4.Here I go again,
Cared too much God damn,
Get out of my way,
I fall hard today.
